You swore you would never regret me;
It was always hard to find your grace,
And now I want you to forget me,
Remove from your memory your daughters face,
No matter how hard you try you can’t keep me here,
I’ll always find a way out; this is my life,
Leading me with my own fear,

I tried to be good but it was never enough,
No matter what I did I could never keep your love,
My worst fear is becoming like you,
My sickest habit is anything that you would do,
I wish I didn’t have a heart so that I wouldn’t feel this way,
I wish I could take my love and throw it all away,

You ask me to believe in God like you do,
But all I see is the devil coming through,
If your God is the real thing than I hate him already,
I don’t want him as my king; I can do it better,

I was always there when you needed someone to throw around,
And you were always ready to drag me in,
Take away my breath and let me drown,
I asked for one thing, for you to love me for who I was,
But you gave me nothing;
You keep shoving me down so that you can rise above,
Above the mask and the armor I wrap around myself everyday,
To keep people like you from finding my soul and torturing it with hate,

I thought this was supposed to be my home,
But instead it’s your castle and I’m the servant kneeling at your throne,
Something has to change; we can’t keep going on like this,
I can’t live this way; until one of us breaks these fights are endless,

I’m ending this today; I’m leaving home to find what I could never get from you,
And as I go away, will you miss me,
Or will you be thankful that I left so soon,
And now that I’m out of your life do you still do that love and hate thing,
Or do you understand what I was going through,
Does anything matter to you, can you see anything,
Do you feel alone and afraid, can you feel what I felt when you were there,
Can you finally see that all I was asking you to do was care,

But even if you don’t I’m no longer yours, I can do what I want to,
And I ask God to guide my heart, and lead me out of this storm,
To take me into his arms and help me forget all about you,
To help me forget the hurt and the pain you put me through,
But I want you to know, no matter what happens,
I will always love you; I will always love the mother I saw in my dreams,

And thank you Mom for giving birth to someone like me.